Coat of Armor
I will be scrubbed with disinfectant. I will be stripped of my clothing. Devoid of makeup, jewelry, even my wedding rings that show I belong to someone – that I am loved will be removed. Yes, everything that describes who I am will be taken from me.
And there I will lay under a sheet, naked and I have to say a little afraid.
I am getting ready for yet another operation. I should be familiar with this procedure because I have done the left hip replacement 9 months prior. Nevertheless, I am still filled with some apprehension. What if? What then?
I think of assuaging it with something to eat. And then I remember that too has been taken away from me. Oh, well.
Sigh. I take a deep breath and slowly let it out. And in that moment of expelling my breath a small voice inside me says —
You don’t really need to be afraid, do you?
As I think about how vulnerable and alone I will feel, I also know there is something that cannot be stripped of me. The layers of what this world uses to define me can be taken from me, but it cannot strip me of my soul. And while the housing of my soul may be stripped; it is in my soul that defines who I truly am. It is my soul that is home to my faith. It is in my soul that God lives and it is He who will and is always with me. This life, this event, cannot strip me of God’s presence within me.
And that faith filled thought slows my breathing and allows me to rest in the Lord’s promises. I am no longer feeling alone, or afraid.
I will be, however, still naked.
Are you going through something that quickens your breath, makes you feel alone, naked and afraid? It is my hope that through this post you remember you are never alone, God is always with you. You have just to call on Him to feel His peace in your heart, and in your soul.
…Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine, Whey you pass through the waters I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God… —Isaiah 43: 1-3