“In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. – Ephesians 4:26
I had been sporting what Christian author Patsy Clairmont coins as a ‘tude (attitude). I was persnickety, critical, quick-tempered, and controlling. I did not fully understand why I was this way until I had overcome several family crises, and began to fall apart physically and emotionally.
I went to a counselor with the complaint, “I cry all the time!” The counselor explained that crying was a symptom of a greater problem. The mind, body and soul are the “trinity” of the human body. If the mind and soul don’t get an attitude adjustment, it can lead to physical ailments.
I began to explore myself and learned that I had been shaped by being a victim of abuse. It took me a while to accept that even the good things in my life were the result of what I had survived as a child. It took even longer to be able to forgive my abuser. As long as I kept harboring that anger, the more I felt I was punishing him. Unfortunately, while I had him in my mental jail, I was imprisoned as well. I had to forgive my abuser to resolve the self-destruction in my life.
Slowly, with the help of my faith in the Holy Trinity (Father, Son and Holy Spirit), I began to heal my earthly trinity (mind, body and soul). Through daily prayer, God helped me to release my anger and pain. I began to see my abuser as a mortal man with a mental illness. Despite what had happened, I was resilient, stronger, and more able to do the work God asked me to do. I had suffered abuse, but I survived! I was no longer the victim.
God has provided me with opportunities to share my story to help others. Good has come out of my experiences, and I have grown to like the person I am, battle scars and all. Taking time with the Holy Trinity proves me with a daily attitude adjustment!