You would think I had a newborn in the house with how little I sleep. I haven’t slept through the night in about ten years. And it’s only getting worse. I have no problem falling to sleep but cannot remain asleep.
When I do manage a full 5-6 hours I am a totally different being – I go from Oscar the Grouch to Happy in Snow White & the Seven Dwarfs. It’s amazing what a solid block of sleep can do for a person.
Over 8 years ago I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and now fashionably wear a CPAP Mask to bed. My heart no longer pauses but apparently insomnia has taken up residence.
I have read books and consulted with my Sleep Disorder Physician. I have removed all electronics from our bedroom, don’t read or watch TV before bed, assumed a nightly ritual, diffuse lavender, meditate on a phrase, and do breathing and relaxation exercises. I refrain from napping during the day and before bedtime – which is often really, REALLY hard to do. And if I stay awake too long, I get up from bed and go sit at the computer and do Facebook or read something. I even do some writing. Sometimes, I watch the sun rise from the window in front of my desk. But sit me down to watch TV the next night and I can be out like a candle in a hurricane.
I have taken shots of Nyquil, ingested Nyquil Z’s, Melatonin, Sleep 3, Trazadone, Advil PM, Tylenol PM, Aleve, Unisom, and routinely take Magnesium. Everything puts me to sleep – I just don’t stay asleep. Either because of an over active bladder or just because – sleep has been playing hide and seek with me. And I don’t want to play this game anymore.
Last night, for the first time, I couldn’t fall asleep. After what seemed like forever (I don’t know how long because I put my alarm clock face down), I got up and took two Nyquil Z’s and then fell asleep for 2 hours before awakening. And was up every two hours after that….
I’m totally undone today. Well, not totally, but definitely disgusted. This usually Positive Paulina is a Negative Nadine and I don’t like it.
I am starting to think Michael Jackson had the right idea because I have some of the best sleep when they give me Propofol or surgery. Except I really would like to stick around to watch my grandsons grow up to be young adults.
So I am reaching out to my readers. Do you have problems sleeping? Do you have trouble falling asleep or staying asleep? What has helped you get a good night’s sleep? Or what do you do when you can’t sleep? Clean house, read a book, count sheep?
And if you, like me, can’t sleep – give me a call. I’m probably up anyway.
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Blessings for Health & Wellness.